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War of Attrition (demo)
03:11
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I want to say how I feel, but I’m too fucking English
Expressing myself is simply insufferable
Swallow it down til the light is extinguished
Caring means weak, tender means vulnerable
Have you heard of this thing called the hedgehog’s dilemma
How we want to get close but our spikes always get in the way
To be held is to hurt, to connect is to sever
I just want to love you but I’m afraid of the pain
Here I go, here I go again
I make myself lonely, I’m losing each win
Here I go, here I go again
Hungry for sun but the day’s getting dim
Surviving doesn’t feel like some glorious mission
Some days I attack, some days all I do is defend
Fighting for life is a war of attrition
Lately I’ve been losing, but I’ll win in the end
Lately I’ve been losing, but I’ll win in the end
Lately I’ve been losing, but I’ll win with my friends
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The Grind (demo)
03:13
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Every morning is the same
I bring you a coffee and whisper your name
The ritual makes me feel less insane
I can’t explain it
Walk the dog and brush the teeth
I’m knuckling down for a long, shitty week
New York is a beast, we just suck from the teat
We gotta eat
Time is blind
Try not to lose myself in the grind
Time’s not kind
Try to feel lucky my life is mine
Maybe the darkness fades away
And I don’t feel drained at the end of the day
My lips aren’t as chapped and my hair isn’t grey
In this dream I have hair
I want to work to make that true
I want it for me and I owe it to you
I’d trade in my time if I knew that it grew
Into something new
Time is blind
Try not to lose myself in the grind
Time’s not kind
Try to feel lucky my life is mine
Time is blind
Try not to lose myself in the grind
Time’s not kind
Try to feel lucky my life is mine
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You could call me more often, you could leave me alone
You could make me a copy of the keys to your home
I’m always here when you need me, and I’m here when you don’t
Like a brother I’ll love you even when your friends won’t
You can move to the forest or go live on the coast
Just don’t lose your dumb humor or your terrible jokes
You can do what you like in this strange little life
Just please don’t change
I’ve been working on balance, don’t want to sound too intense
But in the moments you’re with me, my life makes more sense
The more time we’re together, the more my soul is uncurled
Makes me scared to go back to the rest of the world
Being a friend is like having sex when you’re high
You do it all wrong, but it’s fun just to try
You can do what you like in this strange little life
Just please don’t change
I’m just a kid with his heroes, but the movie’s not true
Do I love who you are or just the image of you
I don’t know if it matters, or if it’s worth it to ask
But please don’t change
It’s like I don’t know you, or at least we just met
To me you’re as close to perfect as people can get
But there’s something not wholesome, there’s something not right
The way the darkness in me is drawn to your light
The way I love you is clumsy and I can’t keep it down
Gives me a lump in my throat just to have you around
You can do what you like in this strange little life
Just please don’t change
Please don’t change
Please don’t change
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4. |
I Wish I Did (demo)
03:08
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You’re not like them
But I can’t explain why that’s true
The voice is yours
The words are from somebody new
I hate your mum
And don’t like the person you’ve become
I wish I did, I wish I did
You miss New York
When I tell you to visit you don’t
You want to talk
But I can’t stand the sight of my phone
Now that you’re gone
Admit that the choice you made was wrong
And I’m not insane
I don’t want to cause you any pain
But I wish I did, I wish I did
Forgive and forget
I don’t think I need to, not just yet
It’s not as hard as before
I don’t even miss you anymore
But I wish I did, I wish I did
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They say when you feel down you should write a big list
Of all of the places you love and the people you’ve missed
Work out, drink tea, call friends, smoke weed
Let yourself crumble but clean the debris
Sometimes days I just feel sad
The autumn’s good, the winter’s bad
And I run, and eat kale, sometimes win, sometimes lose
There’s turbulence now but I’m soon gonna cruise
When you shake
When you feel stranded
You’ve really just landed
It’s like when you dip below the clouds
The bumping starts, the kids get loud
And you fall through the air, take a breath, then you’re there
You feel like you’re crashing and then you don’t care
When you shake
When you feel stranded
You’ve really just landed
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6. |
Sing Out (demo)
02:35
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NEW LYRICS 11.28:
My first year at school I joined a choir
I was the only one not yet retired
Other kids had sex, I had my music
And I wondered why I wasn’t cool yet
So I quit my second year
Went to parties, drank beer
I peed in banks, committed crimes,
Fell in love a dozen times
I want to sing along to Christmas carols
The Andy Williams “Sleigh Ride” makes me fucking feral
But I still care what people think about me
And I’m scared to sing remotely loudly
They’ll think I’m stupid, they’ll think I’m dumb
They want me muted, they want me numb
Songs are just stories, they’re made of words
They’re meant to be heard
I want to write some different lyrics
To write a song and want to hear it
To make a jump and know I’ll clear it
And when I sing, I want to sing out
old lyrics: I would hit a kid to feel inspired I would sell my soul to be less tired I would rob a bank for twenty dollars I would answer to an unknown caller Where does life begin outside, within I'm addicted to my phone scared I'll die alone I want to run in circles til I throw up I want to play with fire until I blow up I want to think my life is undiminished I want to feel something before it's finished Where does life begin outside, within Why is it so hard to exist What have I missed I want to write some different lyrics to write a song and want to hear it to make a jump and know I'll clear it and when I sing, I want to sing out
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7. |
Time Will Tell (demo)
06:59
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We’re at the diner down on Fifth and 9th
I’ve been feeling pretty down
I hear you asking me what’s on my mind
I was spacing out
I think “I dream of being someone else”
I say “I’m ordering the tuna melt”
What is this part of me I’m fighting off
That doesn’t let me let you in
Is there a part of you that writes me off
For the one I could’ve been
Our sandwiches our getting cold
I’m self-obsessed and getting old
Lonely knows me well
Only time will tell
I’ve not been looking for the light each day
It takes so much energy
First it dimmed and then it went away
Just a fading memory
I’m working now to bring it back
To light the fuse and feel the fire crack
Lonely knows me well
Only time will tell
I read this book about the civil war
It says we won it day by day
There was no great battle where we killed them all
We just chipped and chipped away
That’s how I’m gonna win my fight
I win by staying alive each night
Lonely knows me well
Only time will tell
Only time will tell
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8. |
IDKY
03:45
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I've got too much to get rid of or conceal I've got too much to get rid of or conceal I'm jealous of the things you have but I don't even like the shit you like I've been wanting more than I've ever had before I've been wanting more than I've ever had before I'm jealous of the life you have but I don't even want the shit you want I don't know why, I don't know why I don't know why, I don't know why I even care I've said too much, wish I didn't let you in I've said too much, wish I didn't let you in I'm jealous of the man I was now I don't even crave the shit I craved I don't know why, I don't know why I don't know why, I don't know why I even care
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Time on our hands
Feels like the only thing we have
We’re walking in circles, breathing in fumes
Tryin to get through the day
I’m looking for answers, I’m sick of my room
I just gotta say
That I know I’m not really alone
We’re all on our own
I don’t know your name
I don’t know your pain
I don’t know how anybody keeps on going
One day at a time
Each evening there’s fireworks on the street
The sound of a city in tears,
Trying to heal, knowing it won’t
We sit on the couch, my hand on your leg,
My heart rising up in my throat
Inside my head it’s all blurred
And I can’t find the words
I don’t know your name
I don’t know your pain
I don’t know how anybody keeps on going
I don’t know your name
I don’t know your pain
I don’t know how anybody keeps on going
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10. |
Kinda Happy (demo)
02:53
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I head down to Brooklyn
The trains are on time
I don’t remember
The statistics on crime
The pretty barista
Remembers my name
At least for today
Just for a minute
I’m not so alone
I feel something vibrate
My friend’s on the phone
He’s coming to visit
Can he stay on the couch?
We’re too poor to go out
I shoved my way in
Elbows and teeth
To live on these streets
I’m worn out, broke, and getting older
But today I don’t care
I’m kinda happy, I swear
I see Jake and Becky
With an hour to kill
I beat back the darkness
Through sheer force of will
The world is on fire
An imminent end
But I love my friends
On my way home
Dead rat on the street
A pancake with teeth
I’m worn out, broke, and sort of ugly
But today I don’t care
I’m kinda happy, I swear
All these years, all my life
So much work to stay alive
Now this fragile optimism
Is balanced on the edge of a knife
Every day’s a brand new fight
But today I don’t care
I’m kinda happy, I swear
But today I don’t care
I’m kinda happy, I swear
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11. |
Change My Mind (demo)
03:08
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I’m so scared things will end that I pray they don’t start
Try to live in the moment but it breaks me apart
Try to write a nice song but the lines rhyme with fart
But I’ve been trying to change my mind
The leaves make you breathless and then the leaves fall
You make a new friend just to wish they would call
The long lonely nights are the worst of it all
But I’ve been trying to change my mind
I write a song while I’m driving, can’t control what I feel
But it’s hard to write down with one hand on the wheel
I put on the blinkers, pull over to heal
I’ve been trying to change my mind
It feels like my brain’s poking out from the lid
Or I wake up and feel like I’m still just a kid
My body got bigger, now my mind doesn’t fit
But I’m trying, I’m trying to change it
So in March or in April I’ll look at the trees
See them shivering and grateful for winter’s release
The quick happy trills of the robin’s relief
I’ve been trying to change my mind
On the days when I miss you I’ll be glad that we met
Or get busy with work and be glad to forget
Why does trying to be happy feel like paying off debt?
I’ve been trying to change my mind
I’ve been trying to change my mind
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